Feelings....

Sometimes I feel like my life has no meaning...and I need that. I feel so left out..left behind and unimportant. I'm humble too I guess and even when I do find out I am in fact special, I doubt, I have a hard time believing...It could be Me???? I'm important? I want to shout to the rooftops...I am Important and special and powerful in my own right!!!! Roar!! My opinion counts and is just as important as everyone else....I've been around a long time too...I too am wise...
Is my guilt there for a reason? Is it truly my greatest vice or is it??? I'm not sure? I need a sign about this???? If I wasn't the person I am.....would God have such faith in me????